It is weird

I have been thinking about my bizarro experience alot lately. I was just thinking "Wow. I am so grateful that I could have access to such a wonderful hospital". I make jokes about my exams, but they are just a defense mechanism. I have been through some fairly heavy shit this past year and no amount of joking can change that.
I think I make light of it because, hell, I didn't die. Wasn't maimed. Still have a functioning uterus and am fertile. What more can you want? I can't say I wish it never happened because life happens, it is a train that you can either get a ticket for or be tied to the tracks awaiting your end. Okay weird analogy.
I have learned a thing or two about myself and those around me. As long as you learn from and survive what life throws at you, it has been a good day.
*end strange philosophical wandering*